School's starting soon. I haven't vaccuumed the gathering dust around my CPU and packed my table and wiped everything clean and pre-read a couple more books. I haven't discussed and planned with the other two girls, good and proper, the 21st bday celebration for a friend. I'm sorry for last-minute rubbish, and not picking up the pieces quickly enough. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

I'm a disgusting multi-tasker, and I had thrown in my attention for one thing at the expense of a lot of other things, and I didn't realise. Till now. Insensitive git, you silly girl... Can you please draw yourself out a little and pay attention to what else is going on with other people who mean something to you too?

I'm still learning from everyone what it takes to be a decent person. I still forget, I still mess things up, I still get things wrong, but I'm trying to communicate now, and I'm sorry for all the times I have waited for things to happen, and I will will will learn to be better, however I could.

Opportunity costs will have to be balanced to fairness. *apprehensive* I don't know what I got myself in, having pushed for the next big event to continue with such gusto, based only on instincts and certain upheld values, but I must remember never to leave other stuff out as sacrifices anymore. Not family, not friends, not schoolwork, not passion, not sanity. Balance balance balance Charm, okay?